When 2019 began, I was completely unaware of how much the year would shape my life in both wonderful and painful ways. Over the past twelve months, I have walked through unexpected circumstances that shifted my perspective on God and His will for my future.
In January, I entered my second semester of community college and took a psychology class that changed my life. I was assigned a project where I had to choose an elderly individual to interview to determine whether or not he/she was content with the choices that he/she had made throughout his/her lifetime. I chose to interview my grandmother because she and I were extremely close and I felt comfortable asking her deeply personal questions. At the time, I had no clue that interviewing her would be the last time that we would ever share an intimate conversation.
On February 9th, my friends and family threw me an absolutely gorgeous rose gold-themed surprise birthday party. I still cannot believe that I never caught on to how suspicious everyone was acting that day! Nevertheless, I am so grateful that they were able to surprise me because I had the best day of my entire life. I am so thankful for the people around me who constantly make me feel loved. ♥
Near the end of March, my grandmother was diagnosed with a rare form of aggressive cancer. When I was told that she had six months to live, my heart shattered into a million pieces. My grandmother was the only person that I felt like I could talk to. She always seemed to have the answers I was looking for and always pointed me to the Lord. Over the next few months, my family painfully watched my grandmother’s condition worsen. Our family fought hard to find answers (and possibly a cure) while Gran fought hard for her life. She had total faith that God could cure her if that was His will.
On June 8th, I launched my self-titled blog here on WordPress.com, which was the best decision I could have made for myself at the time. I have been blogging on and off for six years, but my dream at the start of the summer was to dedicate my time to the two things that I love the most – writing and makeup. Over the past six months, I have published thirty-one posts, gained 60+ followers, and received over 500 views. While my platform here is still small, I feel so blessed that there are people all over the world that are enjoying what I have to say about faith and beauty.
In early October, I randomly had a dream that I made a beautiful pair of tooled leather earrings. When I woke up the next morning, I instantly started researching and learning how to work with leather and discovered that I had a strong passion for it. After I had several pairs of earrings made that I was pleased with, I launched The Rawhide Boutique on Etsy. I now hand make and sell leather, faux leather, and vinyl earrings and hope to expand into more women’s fashion in the near future. Between schoolwork and running a small business, I stay pretty busy!
I spent the beginning of November preparing for finals and shopping for the upcoming holiday season. I was looking forward to spending time with my family, especially my grandmother, on Thanksgiving. Unfortunately, on November 23rd, she passed away in the Intensive Care Unit, where she had been for several days. I still can’t believe that she’s gone! Grandmother’s passing reminded me that I have no control over the future. No matter how hard I prayed or how long my family searched for a cure for her cancer, God took her from this earth because His plan for her life was completed. She lived a prosperous life of love, service, and faithful commitment to the Lord and I believe with all of my heart that she is now in His safe arms, where there is no more cancer.
December has been a month of healing and rebuilding my mental health. After a full month of experiencing so many emotions at once, I finally feel “okay.” 2019 taught me that life isn’t always fair – and that is perfectly fine. I have had to accept the fact that God is in ultimate control over the present and the future. I am growing in my faith and feeling His presence in my life more and more each day. In the new decade, I hope to graduate from college, grow my blog/company, and maybe even get married! You never know what the future holds! I pray that 2020 is a wonderful year of growth, prosperity, and love for all.
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